If you don’t follow me on social media but have noticed a lack of posts lately, I should probably mention that I’m about ready to have a second baby in the next 2-4 weeks (feels like 2-4 days!) My second pregnancy has been the complete opposite of my first, aside from the fact that I’m bringing another baby boy into our family. My first pregnancy came so easy – I felt great, worked as a lawyer full time, and blogged in my free time. This time has been so much harder. It was way harder to get pregnant, I was terribly sick for the first 18-20 weeks, had about 4 good weeks, and then have been sick and uncomfortable the rest of the time. Now I work as a blogger full time (though I can barely manage 2 posts a week) and a full time momma to a very active 3 year old. During my first pregnancy I wrote a blog for my unborn baby, sharing love letters and updates and funny stories along the way. Like a typical second child, this baby has gotten none of that. Sometimes I feel like he’s only heard me say “Boy, am I tired. I am so ready to be done.” And then I feel guilty for complaining and feeling that way.
I am also anxious about adding another person to our family and changing our dynamic forever. I’m a little sad that it won’t just be us and Charlie, even though I’m super excited about meeting this new little guy too. I hope Charlie remembers at least a little bit about his first 3 1/2 years of life where it was just him, his daddy, and me. We spent so much time together, more than most families get. And I feel so lucky for that. I know it will be wonderful once the new baby is here and that I will love him as much as I love Charlie, but right now it is hard to think of anything but how the new baby will change things with my first baby. And then I feel guilty for feeling that way too.
In the coming weeks I may post a little less. I may not respond to emails. And then I’ll share some guest posts from some sweet friends who have been kind enough to write something to help me take a little time off once baby is here. And I hope you’ll understand that I’m just one person, who is trying to balance being a momma with running a business alone, and also making a little time for my husband and myself. Actual balance is impossible, but if anything in that list is going to take a hit, it has to be this blog. And I hope you understand that I can’t feel guilty about that. Even though I do.
And if you are curious as to what I’m up to during any silence on this blog, you can find me on instagram where I’ll still be posting as much as I can.
I’d love to hear thoughts from my fellow parents on welcoming a second baby to the family. Any tips for preparing your older kiddo or on making that first introduction? Or about anything at all really – I’d love to hear what worked (or didn’t work) for you. Any encouragement and advice is welcomed 🙂