A few weeks ago I had some photos taken with my boys (at 3 1/2 and 34 weeks pregnant). While I find pregnant women and their bodies to be especially beautiful and inspiring, I never really wanted maternity photos of myself (and didn’t do any during my first pregnancy). But this time around I wanted to document this special time with my first born and before my second was born. Both because it was so hot (July, heat wave, and 34 weeks pregnant) and because I wanted to actually see my body rather than cover it up in a big tent dress, we did some photos in our undies. I never intended to share them here, but Jennifer Roper did such a beautiful job that I thought I would share a few of my favorites.
This pregnancy has been a tough one – very different from my first, where I loved it so much I wanted to do it several times over. Due to some difficulties I had during my labor and delivery with Charlie and some issues that developed postpartum (which I’ve discussed in part here), it took me a while to be ready to get pregnant again. And then we had a loss, and it took over a year to get pregnant with baby #2. Maybe because of that, or because I’m older and more accepting of myself, I did want to document this pregnancy. And because pregnancy is a hard and beautiful journey for us all in one way or another, and because I felt like this shoot captures the love I have for both of my boys, my journey, and my body – cellulite, double chin, and all – I wanted to share it with other pregnant women, mothers, and women who hope to become mothers.
Motherhood is a crazy, beautiful, hot mess. Bloggers, celebrities, neighbors, and friends often make it look so easy, so glamorous, and so fun. Sometimes it can be, but often it isn’t. Just know that whatever stage you are in (dreaming, trying, growing, delivering, raising), you’re doing a great job, as good as anyone else out there regardless of what it feels like, and we’re all in it together. Whatever you are experiencing – someone else out there has, is, and will go through it too. And as cliché as it sounds, it really is all worth it.
*Because of the personal nature of these photos, and because my son is in them, please DO NOT REPOST without prior my consent and permission. Thank you.